It’s been quite a while since my last post. About three months, I believe. My New Year’s resolution of writing every day? Yeah, that didn’t last. It’s not as if I haven’t had plenty to write about, because I have. But I lost a lot of motivation to write. I have felt incredibly overwhelmed these last few months, and many days just was floating along and trying to keep my head above water.
Professionally, I think it was the best year I’ve had yet. Personally, it was the hardest. As I mentioned in my last post, I lost my Grandmother in December and it was rather sudden. I’m blessed to say that she and I were very close and have been very close all of my life. I grew up next door to her, and as an adult I enjoyed a special relationship with her. She was a wonderful lady, one that I admired and loved to be around.
Then in January, my mother-in-law, after battling lung cancer for almost two years, took a turn for the worst. She had fought so hard, but the cancer had taken over. In February, she passed away. It has been incredibly painful in many ways. Not only is it my personal loss, but it hurts that my children won’t grow up with their grandmother. Most of all, it has been horrible watching my husband lose his mother. I have felt so helpless as he worked through so many emotions and it doesn’t seem to be getting any easier.
And in the middle of all of this, we became pregnant. You know, because life wasn’t crazy enough. Yes, we are expecting our third child. We are thrilled, and I’m really happy that my mother-in-law was able to rejoice in the news with us while she was still here. As exciting as the news is, fellow moms will understand the exhaustion and discomfort that pregnancy brings. Especially with the third. Wow, this body is tired! Baby #3 will be another boy, so while I am prepared with clothes and such, I’m trying to figure out how to prepare to keep three boys in line as well as my sanity for the next 18 years.
God is good, all the time. I couldn’t get through the bad or the good without my faith in Him. I trust that He is in control and is guiding my steps. He is the source of my joy, not my circumstances. I also have the comfort of knowing I will see my sisters and brothers in Christ in heaven one day, where we will forever be in the presence of Christ. The older I get, the more excited I get for that day.
That’s the last six months summarized in a blog post. I promise from here on out I’ll be posting more often and sharing useful, happy stories and reflections. I’m looking forward to a fantastic summer.